An Apology to Myself and Anyone Who is Still Listening

It’s been a while since I last posted.

About 10 months, or 312 days, or 7,488 hours… I could keep going, but I won’t.

Truthfully, I am sorry. I want to apologize to the people who follow my blog and expect more regular posts from me. I want to apologize to anyone who was waiting for another photo challenge, or ATLT post. And I want to apologize to anyone who was hoping that I might reappear for my annual July Daily Blogging. But most of all, I want to apologize to myself.

 When I started this blog, I expected it to have a slow start, and gradually pick up over time as I got used to it, and developed the habit. I was wrong. It was much easier to fall into right away. I posted every couple days for a while, and over the course of the next several years, I started slowing down.

To be fair to myself, I started this blog right after my high school graduation, when my planner was empty, and continued through my undergraduate career, when my planner  got gradually fuller and fuller.

But after graduation, with an empty planner, I should have started posting more and more. I did the opposite. I just stopped. And that was harder than I realized.

Of course, it was easy to not post anymore; I didn’t have to do anything. The hard part was all of the reminders. The ones sent by WordPress (and my followers), and the ones set by me. Every email I got about my blog, and all of the daily reminders to make sure I either posted that day, or was working on a post, were reminders that I’d given up something that I’d done for years.

Every thought about this little corner of the internet came with a tiny stab of guilt. I thought about disabling those reminders, so I wouldn’t have to think about it as often, but I just couldn’t.

Then, the other day, I had a few extra minutes and decided to click on the WordPress bookmark. I thought I’d just check in, expecting to find a relative ghost town. But it wasn’t. I still had at least a handful of visitors each day. Of course, my numbers were down from when I was blogging regularly, but I was pleasantly surprised at what was still left. In almost a year, I still had traffic.

So, I am coming back. I am coming back for myself, because I put a lot of time, effort, and affection into this blog, and the thought of letting it die a slow and painful death is, well, painful. I am coming back for everyone who reads this blog and has been awaiting the notification of a new post. I am coming back for everyone who still viewed this page for ten months while I was away.

I can’t promise that I will post regularly, but I won’t wait ten months. I will be starting my grand adventure to a master’s degree soon, so I’m sure that will keep me fairly busy.

But I’m coming back!



One thought on “An Apology to Myself and Anyone Who is Still Listening

  1. KakieF says:

    No need to apologize. Blogging always ends up to be something that organically grows and that we grow into as time goes on. I have had long periods without writing anything for many reasons. I was very busy, I had a bout or writers block, etc. There is no “rule book.” You get to decide how you want to do it. Isn’t that terrific?

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